I know it sounds petty and childish to have not gotten over the loss of a material possession that got stolen a month ago when I lived in a different country. Especially in the light of the suffering of those in the Queensland and Victorian floods where people have lost everything, with some even losing their lives.
But I can’t shake this feeling, even if it seems petty or irrational.
I JUST WANT MY REAL CAMERA BACK.
I don’t care about the other stuff that got stolen from my house in DC. But I miss my camera SO MUCH.
I’ve tried so many photo apps on the iPhone. But nothing can replace my Canon 50D and Sigma 17-70mm lens that I took nearly all of the photos on this blog on prior to December 2010. I really, really miss it. It’s especially tough because I can’t just go out and replace it… being primarily a graduate student now, who blew a lot of her savings on going to the US, I just can’t afford it.
Sure, hipstamatic on the iPhone is fun for a while. And I have jazzed up some of the photos I took in New Orleans on my battered up old point-and-shoot using the ToyCameraAnalogColor computer app, or Poladroid. But it isn’t the same. When I was bored or feeling hemmed in creatively, I would just take out my SLR and go for a wander and I was able to see the world a bit differently, or just play around. Some of the photos were absolute crap, and yes, I have also taken some photos I like on the point-and-shoot, but I never minded lugging around my bulky SLR. When travelling, I’d leave my laptop at home before I’d leave the camera.
Maybe I developed some sort of unnatural attachment to my SLR… it was basically my sole travel companion for several months in 2010, so we spent a lot of time together. But I really miss it. And it sucks that it is gone. And the worst part is, there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.
Sure, this photo of the glass ceiling at the Bellagio in Las Vegas is just FINE taken on a point and shoot. But it’s not AMAZING. And the ceiling was AMAZING.